After several years as a manager in industry I was feeling a pressing need for change, however, was finding it impossible to make a decision and to imagine myself in any new position. I was up against too many options that I just couldn’t eliminate. I couldn’t make up my mind or find my real motivation or source of fulfilment. Even if I had been deeply motivated at the outset, I systematically rejected all the offers that were presented me, pretexting reasons that were more or less coherent, so as to avoid the choices.
I tried skill appraisals, coaching, hypnosis etc. Worse, I started to get anxious several days before a foreign business trip or even before a phone call in a foreign language even though I had no problem with the language. Lost and isolated in this feeling of malaise, my sleep was affected, my character became more critical of everything and subject to wild mood swings whilst my family life suffered as I spent hours going through all the jobs pages.
I learnt of the Tomatis techniques thanks to a member of my family who had treated one of his children suffering from behavioural problems in this way with very satisfactory results. Having read some positive testimonies from people in the same case as my own I decided to have a first consultation at the Audio-Vocal Centre. I was struck by the accuracy of the analysis of my personality and of my problems : I was profoundly lateralised on my left side and this was influencing my whole psychology. I decided to undergo a programme of Tomatis audio-vocal sessions not necessarily possessing the assurance that I would see a notable change. At the end of the first session I was no longer tired and my sleep had returned to normal. I noticed that something had changed but I did not know exactly what it was and periods of renewed confidence were followed by profound periods of discouragement. But little by little, through the daily prescribed reading out loud exercises, I felt myself to be increasingly connected with myself and with reality, capable of rebounding and taking on committed choices. In communicating my behaviour, body language and listening also changed.
The second series of sessions consolidated these changes and launched a new dynamic with a return to a correct lateralization.
Today I have progressed enormously in the eyes of my superiors who have confided me the responsibilities of innovation projects and those of profound structural change within the company, thanks to this new-found dynamism and a maturer attitude, more attentive to others. I feel well, no longer fearful of change or apprehensive in international situations. In brief I am taking advantage of events to the full and am ready to accept responsibilities to which I didn’t feel suited before and which in the past were never proposed to me. Every day I discover what truly motivates me and improves my equilibrium. I have recently instigated a move from the Paris region, something we have dreamed of for a long time without actually taking the plunge. Whilst not knowing when this will come about I have remained calm, confident in my competences and choices in this difficult economic period. I continue with the daily exercices of reading out loud which help me to continue to feel my progress, notably in my relationship with others.
In short, nothing but changes in something in which I did not believe at the outset ! More than just being back in touch with myself again I have improved my communication abilities which is beyond price ! I am rediscovering a balanced life made up of changes and choices. Enormous thanks to Dominique and Justin for helping me to recover my professional and most of all my family life !!!
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